HIS BIRTHDAY

Yesterday, it was so frustrating. So yeah, it was his birthday yesterday and last year and I dunno months, the day of my special day, I promised to myself not to greet him since he didn't greet me but unfortunately, I didn't stop myself from greeting him since he texted me. AWW! I really hate it. And I can't stop myself from smiling when he replied "Thankx". Yes, I know, I memorize it or I remember it. AHH!! Damn that guy! His always bugging my mind and its hurt seeing him with another girl. Now I know about the "oh-so-over-mushy-feelings" I read on books. Talking about KARMA. Tsk3. X.o

BESTFRIEND, SAME FEELING.

10th grade 

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade 

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. 

Senior year 

The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. 

Graduation Day 

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later 

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried. 

MY NEW BLOG

Okay. So BLOGSPOT is more complicated than what I thought. But I still love editing it. MY NEW BLOG :)

I'ts not really that nice. From what I think. I don't know the *pasikot-sikot* of this site. I found a cute theme  but its hard to apply it. *Oh damn! This is hard* Anyways, I post random stuffs here so just, err >.< How do I say it? BLAH! Nevermind :D

TUMBLR

TUMBLR. My favorite "mini-blog". haha:) that's what i call it. My post on there are random things also. To follow, here's my url:  http://immissrandom.tumblr.com/

OBSESSION

The Camp Half-Blood map. This is a part of the book i'm reading now. "Percy Jackson and the Olympians Series". We classmates who are reading this and have read this are claiming ourselves as demigods. Well, I claim myself as the daughter of Hades, god of the Underworld and the dead and my camper name is Luanne Chaine. I'm now reading the last book of the series, "The Last Olympian". So if your quite interested in greek myth, then read it now.

LOL! now look who's endorsing. haha :DD

BLOG

So yeah. I'm a newbie here and this is my first post. So first stop is, well, i'm always looking forward to have a blog and there is it now. One of my dreams come true. *haha* Anyways, all i want to do is post my thoughts, emotions, ideas etc. I'm a messy girl so i think i'll be posting here some random things. And yeah, happy trip here in my new world :)